Psalm 27:20-21: You who have made me see many troubles and calamities will revive me again; from the depths of the earth you will bring me up again. You will increase my greatness and comfort me again.

 

When God allows the unthinkable to occur, it's time to decide what we really believe about who God is. Do I really believe God is good? Do I believe that He is my sustainer? My hope? My loving Father? 

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I began dating my ex-husband at a conservative Bible college when we were wide-eyed freshman. We dated all through college and were married at 22. He became a youth pastor and I did my best to support him. I certainly wasn't a perfect wife, but I believed our marriage was strong. In the midst of years of infertility, the death of his stepmother, and a miscarriage, I thought we were tight.

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One day he decided he was leaving. He meant it. He was gone before I had any recourse. 

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For nine years of marriage, my husband was on the throne of my heart. When that relationship was stripped away I began scrambling around hunting for the pieces of my shattered heart and wondering if it was possible to put myself back together again. 

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I'll never be the girl I was, but God has been so faithful. So near. So perfectly attentive. Even though my husband never came back, filed for divorce, and left his life behind, I choose to believe that God is absolutely who He says He is.

 

I hope to use the message of this blog to support women who have been through the trauma of divorce or circumstances out of their control. God is near- seek Him. There is so much hope and promise in our future! Thanks for reading friends! 

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